Everything has Worth
Lately I have been having trouble with life. I have the fun times of course, but then I just remember everything I need to do. Hailey's concert last friday was so incredible and she did such an amazing job putting it on. I had a blast and it will always be a great memory. But then the day after the concert, it hit me what I need to do, and how I really can't miss out on anything. Soon is winter break, and my last semester of high school, my last part of life as a minor, my last time I see my best friends everyday will be over. I know I will make new friends wherever I go, but it feels like they just can't get better. Yes I love you guys. :)
All this work that I should be doing now just keeps piling up and it gets so stressful. I know typing this now is not helping the load diminish, but I feel like I need to share this with the world. Finals are so soon, and I need to finish college stuff and just get that over with, but its almost that I'm scared to finish it. Maybe if I finish all my deadlines I will make time go slower just to savor it, but it is making the time faster and more stressful. Maybe it would be worth it for me to stay up late tonight and catch up on absolutly everything. Tomorrow I teach karate at 2:30 and 3:15. Time crunch! hahaha.
Anyways, back to friends. I think we are all feeling the same pressures right now to get everything done, the desire to just not do anything because senior year is almost over, and the want to get away from home and live our own paths. Maybe I am the only one who doesn't want to lose the people she loves know, but it doesn't make it any less real for me. I love my senior year, with the goods and the bads. We had a speaker today that said that life only gets better. At this point, its hard to believe, but I have to have faith that it does.
And lust, like they pointed out at K-Life yesterday- it is a desire within us, something one can't stop, but can control. How everywhere in our lives, we see the lust and love to promote stuff to us, to hear it in the halls. I really want it to stop. I don't like those comercials because they are stupid, and I do want to make my life right and do not lust. I think as of now, that can be a new goal.
But for now I'm off to do homework and whatever else needs to be done. Peace.
All this work that I should be doing now just keeps piling up and it gets so stressful. I know typing this now is not helping the load diminish, but I feel like I need to share this with the world. Finals are so soon, and I need to finish college stuff and just get that over with, but its almost that I'm scared to finish it. Maybe if I finish all my deadlines I will make time go slower just to savor it, but it is making the time faster and more stressful. Maybe it would be worth it for me to stay up late tonight and catch up on absolutly everything. Tomorrow I teach karate at 2:30 and 3:15. Time crunch! hahaha.
Anyways, back to friends. I think we are all feeling the same pressures right now to get everything done, the desire to just not do anything because senior year is almost over, and the want to get away from home and live our own paths. Maybe I am the only one who doesn't want to lose the people she loves know, but it doesn't make it any less real for me. I love my senior year, with the goods and the bads. We had a speaker today that said that life only gets better. At this point, its hard to believe, but I have to have faith that it does.
And lust, like they pointed out at K-Life yesterday- it is a desire within us, something one can't stop, but can control. How everywhere in our lives, we see the lust and love to promote stuff to us, to hear it in the halls. I really want it to stop. I don't like those comercials because they are stupid, and I do want to make my life right and do not lust. I think as of now, that can be a new goal.
But for now I'm off to do homework and whatever else needs to be done. Peace.
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